This is a day that I’ve been looking forward to for a while now, it’s my 30th birthday. But, just over two weeks ago my world was rocked by the unexpected loss of my beloved Grandpa Max, my last grandparent. As I always do, I made several plans for the New Year as well as had high hopes for myself. I had started to dream about 2024, but when Grandpa left Earth December 30th—I didn’t want the new year to start. It felt too soon. I didn’t want to celebrate. In 2023 my family had him, and now for every day of 2024 and every day and year to come, we won’t. It’s now January 15th and I have yet to get a workout in, or take the dog on a walk. I’ve been forcing myself to do the bare minimum, what I must do in life. But I’m not yet ready to dive back into everything else.
Toward the end of 2023, I began to write out content topic ideas for all of my social media accounts and different platforms, as well as my blog and podcast. I had high hopes for myself. I did finish my first digital book, and it is for sale now! I really wanted to write and publish my first book before I turned 30, and I did accomplish that goal. If you haven’t checked it out yet, here’s where you can read more about the book and purchase it for yourself. Ironically, later into the night on December 30th the day Grandpa passed away, I checked my email and saw that my book was officially official and ready to go. I never got to show him the final book.
I find myself yet again changing and evolving, as I talk about so often. My views are different regarding the new year and I feel a bit philosophical about it all. As I’ve said before about Mondays, they are just a day of the week that we’ve created. And I guess similar to the typical calendar year we use. There are many other cultures who don’t celebrate new years on January 1.
I’ve also done a lot of inner work to let go of setting expectations. Sometimes it’s easy to sink into the feeling around a new year, of grandiose expectations and dreams. The reality, every year is hard. And a lot of hard seasons that come about, we’re usually unexpected. We don’t know what 2024 will hold. We must take every day for what it is. Despite this though, I still was shocked with the unexpected loss of my Grandpa Max. It has made me take some accountability that there’s more work to do on the inside of myself.
And I think I’m officially done worrying about planning out the perfect content. I have watched so many trainings, listened to so many podcast episodes, searching for the one perfect piece of advice to guide me to success with all of my passions. I think I’m loosening the grips on this though, letting go of ALL expectations, and throwing it all out the window. Instead, I just want to be real. The realest of the real. The truest, most authentic version of me. I want to share about everything. This has been my main hiccup. Everyone tells you that you must find a niche. I don’t have one. And, I never want one. I am a hodgepodge of a human being. I am multi-passionate.
My mission is Start Going Further. It’s about living your best, most fulfilled, and happiest life. Enjoy your life to the fullest, be the best you. Always strive to grow, change, and evolve. Take self-accountability. Be a good person. Be willing to learn. Start Going Further in all things, and all areas of your life. And for me, it’s really about absolutely EVERYTHING.
If your year didn’t start out the way that you thought it would, I’m right there with you. I think we need to stop worrying about the future so much. Today really is all that we have. And we have no idea what the rest of it will look like, or tomorrow. No moment on this floating rock we call Earth is guaranteed.